It's safe to say 2015 wasn't my year. There's wasn't one specific thing about it that was particularly bad, in fact there were plenty of really great moments. It was just a bit of a non-event if that makes sense, nothing particularly exciting happened. There were no moments were I felt especially proud of myself, nothing for my Mum to boast about on facebook anyway! Oh boy this is a real downer isn't it! I guess in all honesty I'm just frustrated. I'm frustrated because I know that I could be in a much happier position in life and the only thing that's holding me back is me. Hopefully by the end of 2016 I will have had one big achievement to be proud of, whatever it may be.
I'm sure I'll sound like the typical 'on the bandwagon' blogger here but I have issues with chronic anxiety and have had for a long time. All I'll say is I think it's great that mental health is spoken about much more openly now, I do however worry that some people are misinterpreting the difference between feeling anxious and chronic anxiety disorders. But anyway that's a subject for another time! Seven years ago I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder, panic disorder and slight agoraphobia. It's something I deal with day to day and while it's effects are invisible to most, it's still the one thing that's holding me back from leading the life I want to lead. Fortunately I started to see a shift in 2015 where I was able to do things I haven't been able to for years. I really feel like this is a change that has continued with me into 2016 and I feel excited for all the things I will no longer be saying no to!
I've not set myself any resolutions for 2016, purely because I'd have a list as long as my arm of things I hope to achieve! I don't have any sort of fixed focus of where I want to be in the future either. I'm hoping this will be the year when I start figuring all that out. As corny as it sounds though, I felt differently about moving into this new year than I did the last. In a good way. Things seems more possible now than they have for a long time, I'm positive that this stale mate I've been in for a while will finally become unstuck.
I'm excited about what the future holds for me and my blog. I've got big plans for Beauty Dressed this year which involve posting a lot more regularly, improving my photography and writing and being more prominent on social media. I hope you've noticed a difference already in the quality of my recent blog posts! I feel really proud of the last few posts I've put up and I will do my utmost to make sure it continues. Get ready to see a new organised version of me this year, in all parts of my life!
I hope you all have a fantastic 2016, I've got a good feeling about this one!